Archive | April 2013

Winnie’s Warriors #33 | Little Gestures & Small Miracles

Hello Everyone!

 

This Friday, April 19th marks my two-year anniversary of my first surgery. So hard to imagine. Really.

 

It’s been a very interesting month of April.

First off, the weather has been so strange. Warm-ish and sunny one day and then snowy with freezing rain the next. Good thing I have kept my winter tires on and hadn’t put away my winter boots and coats. I bought an “apres-ski” coat on sale at Sporting Life thinking I would not be able to wear it until next season but lo and behold I sported it just on the weekend! LOL.

 

A couple of special things happened this month and it’s not even over! The first was a surprise for me. I was having dinner with my BFFs Chris & Jim at their place. It was so delicious. After dinner, Jim gave me a beautiful silk Hermes scarf. The colours were perfect. Red, White and Blue. (Yankee Doodle!) The motif was golf. On one corner was the Nabisco logo. Jim’s Mom passed away recently and at her service her daughter talked about her passion for golf. She was a champion. She had played in the Nabisco tournament with Jack Lemmon. It was a highlight of her many achievements in golf. She shot an 86 last year. She was fiercely private about her age so let’s just say she got close to shooting it that day. I was so touched to receive this gorgeous gift. The sentiment was incredibly lovely. Merci beaucoup mes amis!

 

The second happened the very next morning. I wore the scarf with my spring trench coat. It was a sunny day. Crisp air. I got lots of compliments on the scarf, although with my coat made me look like a flight attendant! (LOL!). My Warrior who I had gone to a chemo treatment with last month was scheduled to have her last one that morning. I knew that this hospital did not have the ritual of “ringing the bell” to mark the occasion (like I had at Princess Margaret PMH). So I went to surprise her. And surprised she was when I texted her to say I was there. She responded “OMG! Coming to get you!” She came out to meet me and had tears on her face. I think she was so amazed that I was there to support her. The emotion. I hadn’t expected that. I hadn’t expected how it made me feel to see her react that way. It was truly awesome. I felt great to know that my little gesture could make such a difference to another human being. WOW!!

 

I remember the feeling when someone rang the fire bell at PMH as they walked out after their last chemo treatment. I remember how everyone clapped and smiled for that moment. Knowing that you too would have a turn to do that. I remember how I felt that day I rang the bell. All that hope. Amazing. I wanted her to have that feeling too. So I brought and gave her a small bell that was given to me many years ago by a special boy named Davis. She was very touched. I couldn’t stay for her treatment but she sent me a message when it was done and told me the nurse and pharmacist rang the little bell for her. I had to fight back a tear when I read that.

 

I walked in the sunshine down to a conference I was attending with my head held high and with a big smile on my face knowing that I had done the right thing and it felt so good. Nothing was more important than being there. I was late for the start of the conference but it was worth it!!

 

The best part of it all is that it made me feel really really good. I have to admit that the dull weather, the lymphedema, the return of the hot flashes and lack of good sleep, have gotten me a little down and worn out. I needed this.

 

Little gestures that help bring about small miracles are everywhere and all around us.

They bring us hope. They bring us wonder. They let us believe.

 

We get through adversity with the support and care of those around us. How? Why? It’s simple: Because We Love and Are Loved.

 

Take care my Warriors. 

Winnie xo

This entry was posted on April 18, 2013.

Winnie’s Warriors #32

Hello Everyone:
 
Happy Easter and Happy Passover to those that celebrated.
 
I was happy for Easter to arrive as for lent this year, (February 13-March 30) I decided to give up eating all types of meat, except I kept seafood in my diet to make sure I got enough protein. For that reason and you just can’t eat that many beans day in and day out! LOL. I guess it was my version of a cleanse. Honestly, I wasn’t sure if I could do it, as I do love my steaks (accompanied with martinis or a good red wine), but I did persevere. (I think when I was going through treatment I tried to give up alcohol…….I lasted 3 days.) But, as my oncologist said, better to drink a little than not at all! I got up bright and early on Easter morning and went to a one hour Zumba class. I hadn’t been in about 7 weeks and I wasn’t even sure I could make it through the class. Yikes. Maybe due to lack of food so I went home and made myself a good breakfast of bacon and eggs, with some strong coffee to wash it all down. : )   Someone told me that once you haven’t had meat in awhile, that it would taste strange and that maybe my body would reject it……..not so for this girl. I was “Hmmmmm….BACON……” (just like Homer Simpson……wide-eyed……but without the drooling…..LOL).
 
I’ve been wearing my black compression arm sleeve as I am waiting for the gauntlet to match and wear with my new beige one. So far when people see me wear it, they actually think it’s a fashion accessory! A lady in my Zumba class actually gave me a thumbs up and came over to say she thought I was being quite fashionable for Zumba. Until she realized I was only wearing one sleeve. Who knows? I could start a new fashion trend.
 
We’ve been having some sunshine as of late in Toronto. This past weekend was lovely, up until Sunday late afternoon. A nice tonic to warm and heal the soul after a long winter season. The only problem with the warmer weather, is that it’s bringing on the hot flashes in a fierce way. Sometimes, it can be a good thing, like when I go skiing, I don’t have to wear as many layers – as I am my own walking furnace. LOL! However, when it starts to wake you up in the middle of the night, or when you’re just relaxing with a glass of wine or doing some chores, it can be annoying. I’ve been trying to hydrate as much as possible. I’m supposed to drink more water to help with the lymphedema anyway.
 
I’ve had 5 treatments for my arm now. 5 more to go with my OT. Then, I’ll try to find a physiotherapist that has training to treat people with lymphedema. We did measure at my last treatment and it seems that the swelling is under control. My arm hasn’t gotten bigger. Now, I have to continue to manage it and try to maybe get it back to “normal”. I have been swimming 3-5 times a week. Just simple laps for about 20 minutes each time. Taking advantage of the fact I have a pool at my condo. Finally getting some value add out of the high maintenance fees I pay!! Most times I’m the only one there so it is like having my own private indoor pool. Kind of nice. It’s very therapeutic and peaceful. But I think I need to buy a one-piece bathing suit. The bikini can be a little awkward at times. But it’s holding up quite well, considering I paid $10 for it at a street fair in New York City last year (it’s good quality and a brand name….it may have fallen off the back of a truck!). LOL.
 
Can’t wait for the warmer weather so I can put away the winter coats, hats, scarves, boots and mitts. Since my fast over the Lent period and the swimming I’ve been able to wear my ‘skinny jeans’ again……I haven’t been able to do that since after radiation when I looked a little too thin. I look and feel healthier and that’s not an April Fools joke!
 
Hugs and Love.
Winnie xo
This entry was posted on April 1, 2013.