Hello Everyone:
Happy Autumn/Fall. It has been quite the spring and summer. From my last ‘interrupted’ update – it is with a very heavy heart, that I write to say I lost my mother on Saturday, April 22, 2023 at 1:08 am. She was 73. Only 3 weeks after my last post.
Needless to say, while I have had the title of this post always in my head since then, I have not been able to find the will to actually write about it. It has been a roller coaster of emotions as many of you know. To lose a parent, no matter what the circumstances is devastating. The waves of griefs that come and go, mixed in with some laughter and tears, good & bad memories are constant. I said to my brother that I don’t think it gets better, even with time, however we just learn to live with it differently as we continue on.
While I had ‘lost’ a large part of my mother due to her Alzheimer’s in the past number of years and the disease caused a lot of complications in our relationship, finally losing her was crushing as our last weeks together had moments of tenderness, love, understanding and interaction that I had not had with her in a long time. All which has made things that much harder. Her last words to me were “Thank you” in chinese. That was less than 12 hours before she passed. In her last weeks, she barely spoke. I was the first there and hugged & held her hand until I was joined by my siblings and her faithful husband, Robert.
I know my Mommie bear is always around me and I carry a piece of her with me always. She was a true Warrior and had a huge impact on the woman I am today. Forever grateful. Missing her always and terribly.
I share with you a link, in loving memory.
Much love to you all. Winnie, the Warrior. XOXO
